there are some people who have everything and still feel nothing. they are neither happy, nor sad, not even content. they are disconnected from everything and everyone around them. it is as if they are watching their lives from the sidelines. they see themselves receiving all the blessings and all the love from the people around them. no matter how much they want to feel grateful and happy about it, they just don't. and they do not know why or how they got to be that way.
the next thing that they feel, after the wanting, is guilt. guilt for not being happy for all the wonderful things around them. guilt for not being able to return the same enthusiam, love, and support that they are receiving. guilt from not being able to appreciate it all.
and then these people would start thinking there is something wrong with them. that they are horrible selfish person. and since they are horrible and selfish to begin with, they start working on burying that guilt deep down where they would not be able to get in the way of their sleep.
and then the worst thing happens. they get disconnected from it all. and a big black hole from within start gnawing and growing until it sends them sprawling on the floor. crying. not knowing why. they just feel like they need to cry. just so they can feel again. and they can't/won't stop, because they know, that the moment they stop crying, they will only feel the need to cry again.
the next thing that they feel, after the wanting, is guilt. guilt for not being happy for all the wonderful things around them. guilt for not being able to return the same enthusiam, love, and support that they are receiving. guilt from not being able to appreciate it all.
and then these people would start thinking there is something wrong with them. that they are horrible selfish person. and since they are horrible and selfish to begin with, they start working on burying that guilt deep down where they would not be able to get in the way of their sleep.
and then the worst thing happens. they get disconnected from it all. and a big black hole from within start gnawing and growing until it sends them sprawling on the floor. crying. not knowing why. they just feel like they need to cry. just so they can feel again. and they can't/won't stop, because they know, that the moment they stop crying, they will only feel the need to cry again.
it was comforting to watch the movie.
so the bottomline:
- have the courage to get out of your comfort zone - it's the only way to live
- embrace the people you meet along the way and learn from them
- waiting for people to forgive you is a waste of time; it's much better to spend time working on forgiving oneself
